Reflections...

I digress a bit today...

I find myself humming the tune of Regina Spektor's song "Samson" more often than I'm comfortable with lately... You know, Samson like in "Samson & Delilah" from the Bible? I heard it from my eldest daughter as she was surfing YouTube. Being the musically-inclined person that I am, and a piano-player at that, I listened to the song a few times since it had a catchy feel to it (did I mention it was played using only a piano?)... And what did I realize?

1) I'm still an idealistic schmuck when it comes to love...
2) I too emotional and sentimental for my own good...
3) I have a strong tendency to put myself in the other person's shoe in my attempt to understand their point of view.
4) For better or for worse, i'm still a very sensitive person deep down inside...

Going back to the song. Spektor's voice is hauntingly emotional so much so that it makes me wanna drown myself in tears. I find myself imagining I was in Samson's place and honest-to-God truly falling in love with my version of Delilah (who in my mind's eye, happened to look strikingly like my wife I might add). I didn't mind she took everything from me (she cut Samson's hair, the source of his amazing strength, so it was said), and even told Delilah she did good cutting his hair. Love blinds even the mighty, the song seems to say. The sadness of it all was that ours was a tragic love that ended in death. I'd have to say I find that the lyrics were not in accordance with what you would read in the Bible. I don't recall Samson being strong because of eating "wonder bread" (like I said, the hair! the hair!), and no one remembered them or even mentioned them in the Bible (totally not true). A quick Google and Wikipedia check disproves that part of the lyrics. Unless of course the song is referring to a totally different Samson (and/or Delilah)? That's another story entirey... :)

Despite being a bit overly critical of the song, I still love it and cannot help but feel a pang of bitter-sweet pain somewhere in my heart. I almost cried a couple of times just imagining what could have happened if it were me who played Samson in that song's lyrics...

Just goes to prove that love in its various frenzied states still resides in this battle-worn heart of mine...

Oh boy, I hear the song in my head again... sob... :(